‘A tremendous power’ :- Early in 1911 the International Order of the Star in the East was founded, with Krishna as its Head & Mrs Besant & Leadbeater its Protectors. The object of the Order was to draw together all those who believed in the near Coming of the World Teacher & to help prepare public opinion to receive him. George Arundale was made secretary to the Head. A quarterly magazine, the Herald of the Star, was founded & was printed at Adyar. ‘Why did they pick on me?’ While the court hearings were continuing the boys were moved around from place to place. In the summer of 1913 they were at Varengeville, on the coast of Normandy, where a house had been lent to them by M. Mallet.* Arundale had now resigned from the central Hindu College to help tutor the boys. Instructions the Master came through Leadbeater that Krishma was never to go out unless accompanied by two initites – this meant Arunbale & Raja. Raja was A much sticter disciplinarian than Arundale & the boys resented him as a tutor. Lady Emily was also at Varengeville that summer, in another house with her five children, & in the afternoons there were games of tennis & rounders. The chief activity, however, was planning a new & enlarged Herald of the Star, to be published monthly in England with Lady Emily as its editor. During that summer Krishna became Lady Emily’s ‘entire life’. Her ‘husband, home & children faded into the background’. She looked upon Krishna as both her ‘son & her teacher’, & he, for the next few years, was almost equally devoted to her. ‘I can never realize my dream’ At first Krishna lived in Paris with two Theosophists & Star members, Madame Blech & her sister, & homesick for Lady Emily, reached the nadir of his unhappiness & disillusionment with his role. He rwote to Lady Emily on 1 February: ‘I con never realize my dream, the more wonderful it is the more sadder & unalterable. You know my dream, mother, which is being with you ad infinitum. But I am a lusus naturae (a freak of nature) & nature enjoys its freak while the freak suffers.’ And ten days later: ‘On! Mother, I am young, must I grow old with sorrow as my eternal companion? You have had your youth & your happiness & you have which can be given by man & God, a home!’ ‘God-intoxicated’ :- The Master’s message to Krishna in Sydney had greatly influenced him. He wrote to Lady Emily on 12 August for the past fortnight he had been meditating on it for half an hour every morning & again before sleeping. ‘I am going to get back my old touch with the Masters & after all that’s the only thing that matters in life.’ Five days after writing this, on the 17th, he underwent a three-day experience that entirely revolutionized his life. It was not for a fortnight, however, that an account of it, written by Nitya, was sent to Mrs Besant & Leadbeater: